Thanks to this video, I finally have an understanding of the mechanism of realization, which cleared up some ambiguities in me.
このビデオのおかげで、ずっと分からないでいた現実化の仕組みが理解できた。
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Dr. Joe Dispenza ジョー・ディスペンザ博士
In February 2025, I began an intensive effort to evolve my inner life.
Several improvements were identified. For example, meditating three times a day became my new habit and my SMS time was dramatically reduced. Awareness of my emotions and my breathing was also improved. The anxiety and loneliness within me became much quieter.
All this is due to the knowledge of Dr. Joe Dispenza. The daily input of his information motivates me to continue my journey.
2025年2月、私は自分の内面を成長させるための集中的な取り組みを始めた。
いくつかの改善があった。例えば、1日3回の瞑想が新たな習慣となり、SMSに費やす時間が劇的に減った。自分の感情や呼吸に対する気づきも強化された。私の中にある不安や孤独も、ずっと静かになった。
これらはすべて、ジョー・ディスペンザ博士の知識のおかげだ。彼の情報を毎日インプットすることが、私の新たな挑戦を日々続けるモチベーションになっている。
Living in Tokyo
Moving from one place to another can be time consuming and a little hassle especially during the pandemic. In this span of time, I had no choice but to do so and decided to move back to Tokyo last September to avoid vaccinations and as you may have known, the mandatory PCR test is required frequently in Vietnam. To be honest, it took me about two weeks to complete this move after deciding to leave. I was scared to death about the case that the border would/might be closed for unvaccinated people or there would/might be another duty for the PCR test. In Vietnam, I had to have it regularly, even though I was not able to go out.
I finally made it to Tokyo!
To start with, I settled down in a tiny apartment after a few months of staying in a monthly apartment, got a full-time job offer starting next month, and also gained access to meet my daughters regularly. I was on top of the world with my life’s choices!
During that time, I had to make many choices such as the date of a flight, the location to live, a job to apply for and take, and materials for my new life. Finding an apartment was extremely difficult, as I did not have any idea where my new office was! However, I did it by connecting small clues that came to me unexpectedly. Well, that is what I like the most about life! You have to strike while the iron is hot!
My way to deal with my loneliness under lockdown
My work from home started about three weeks ago. I have not been to the city for about three months. I also figured out almost nothing in common with one of my good friends, to whom we talk every day.
And then, I came back to English learning; that is my pattern to overcome this loneliness. As motivation is not appropriate, the result should be the same.
This time I found a way, which is writing emails or messages to my friends. They understand my situation and know that one-way writing is okay to me. I have too much time, while many friends are busy with their family.
It seems like I have time for a while and hoping to restart this blog more often and more casually. I started it when I was in such an intensive English academy by having classes with a blogger teacher. I just restarted to contact her a few days ago. People tend to make a story to find a reason to motivate, don’t they? It can narrow the view, but it works sometimes, I believe. I took the sign this time.
Honestly, there is also a hidden purpose in this blog, which is to find lovely friends. I have sometimes experienced that this blog helps me have a deep connection quickly, and now, I would love to visit them after lockdown.
Understanding with Presence
Seven months have passed since I started to work. My experiences and knowledge have begun to link each other such as synapses in the brain. The perception and comprehension of the life lessons I have heard frequently have been growing deeper and deeper, especially ‘Understanding with presence.’
Thanks to my bosses, co-workers, and work situations, I practice it every day, such as the imagination of other colleague’s positions and standings. There is nothing to blame others in this world. If something is happening, I want to blame, simply because of a lack of understanding or presence. ‘Understanding with presence’ is perfect totally.
It is not great at all at work, but I am achieving a lot from my mistakes. As an example, my deep thinking tendency sometimes brings a stupid result. Only reviewing three times with presence prevents such things, I realized. Moreover, it commenced being a new habit.
My body condition also affects my work’s productivity and quality, such as sleeplessness and hormone changes. Dr. Jonh Gray says that current work conditions are not for women, like pressure, deadlines, etc. Admitting what I am not okay with and adjusting the actions has reduced my stress. I can assure I have become more kind to myself.
Dancing and networking I used to prefer have gone without extra energy. Instead, I relish my time, learning something new, even on weekends. My relationships have shifted, as well. It seems like I became able to attract what I need more powerfully and precisely.
I have an excellent friend who is eighty years old with lots of passion and confident vibrations. Of course, he looks amazingly young. I was surprised to notice that I still have about forty years to reach his age.
Sometimes, I feel I should work and study more to have more freedom sooner. However, I know I can invest energy only one thing. I should focus on my work with stillness for a while. The great thing is changes often come earlier than I expect.
Emotion Is Your Choice
First off, I began to work as an accountant this March. Actually, working for a company is almost a new experience to me. As you may know, I used to be a kind of homemaker for more than 14 years. Plus, the company I am currently in has a unique culture of Vietnam combined with a satisfactory, old Japanese company. It brings me lots of challenges and life lessons. Thus, I needed my time to be charged. However, finally a passion to write has come to me. This time I would like to share an unforgettable experience with you, that happened 2 weeks ago.
I was in the office and suddenly I started to feel isolation. The coworkers were enjoying talking about something in Vietnamese and I didn’t understand their topic at all. That is quite usual, but at that time, I gathered negative information subconsciously about my work, and I went deeper and finally tears appeared. Even after I went back home, I was not able to stop.
Right after I started chatting with my happiest lady friend in Ho Chi Minh City, I realized the fact that I chose this sadness. Immediately my sadness disappeared. It was a very intense experience. I also found out I can control other emotions with awareness, such as anger, fear, etc. I felt like I had obtained such a powerful tool to create my day without unhelpful feelings. I don’t need to suffer from thoughts that don’t serve me anymore.
Just now, there is a strange sensation within me, like I was in the story I created. Definitely, I took that experience too personally at that time. I have read about it many times in the past, but I did not understand exactly. But yes, now I am feeling that.
Going back, only experiences with fine awareness are what I need for now. Working, learning, walking in the park, and so on, everything is a beautiful experience. I appreciate each day, and I can tell that I live every day more intentionally. How lovely my life in Ho Chi Minh City is….
These are taken in a mangrove jungle near Ho Chi Minh City….
How Can I Distinguish between Overthinking and Intuition? My Answer Is: Take Your Time.
My Chinese zodiac is snake. My horoscope sign is Scorpio.
By Suzanne White “The New Astrology Pocket Guide”
I am very intuitive and sometimes overthink. I have been having a hard time how to tell apart instinct from just overthinking.
Basically, I would like to follow my intuition.
People tend to have negative ideas when thinking too much, but I used to pick up the positive ones. However, my guts can sometimes give me negative answers.
On the other hand, it is also beneficial to choose the one I can control more in order to avoid stress.
My mentor always teaches me to decide after taking a deep breathe and slight meditation. Luckily, I found a more simple way for it. That is, just take your time.
It is also a good idea to ask advise from your friends. If they are good listeners, you will find your answer naturally. That’s why especialluy we women need friends.
In the past, I hadn’t consulted my friends since I believed that I know my answers were within me. Now that I have some friends to ask a piece of help easily, depending on the issues. At the same time, more friends ask me help as well. That is an interesting thing.
One of my ex-boyfriends used to say “Let me think”. I remember that his mind was very quiet then. I would like to follow it with intent.
These days, I have more control of my emotion. A friend of mine pointed out: when I was talking about myself, it seems like I was talking about others but not myself.
Emotion is just flowing naturally, and it’s not even me or mine.
As I have written in my past blogs, the more concentrated decisions I have, the better reality will come to me.
I am happy that I realized that my understanding on how to make a choice intentionally is getting deeper and I started to master it.
At a favorite restaurant in Manila Airport Terminal 3. Finally, this terminal changed into a comfortable place since last year. It has lots of sweet memories with my two daughters.
わたしはさそり座の巳年。
ものすごく直感が鋭いです。
同時に、深く考えすぎてしまうことがあります。
何か決断をしないといけない時、
直感なのか、考えすぎなのか、
どう区別したら良いのかわからないでいました。
直感に従って行動したいのです。
考えすぎはネガティブな結論になりがちなので、
あえてポジティブな答えを選んでいたときもありましたが、
それでも直感もネガティブな結論を出すこともあります。
また、自分でよりコントロールできる方を選ぶというのも、
ストレスを抱えない意味で大切です。
何か決断をしないといけない時に、
深呼吸をして、軽く瞑想をして自問するようにしていたのですが、
友達から、もっとシンプルな方法を教えてもらいました。
単純に答えを出すまでもっと時間をかけることです。
友達に相談しているうちに時間はすぎます。
そのうちにはっきり答えが見えてきます。
だから、特に女性には相談相手が必要なんですね。
答えは全部自分が知っている、と考えるようになってから、
あえて誰にも相談しない時期もありましたが、
今は、何人も相談相手がいて、タイミングや内容により
ベストな人に気軽に相談に乗ってもらっています。
不思議なもので、わたしに相談をしてくれる人も増えました。
かつて、「考えさせて。」（Let me think.）が口癖の人と
お付き合いをしていたことがあります。
その時、確かに彼のマインドはとても鎮まっていました。
わたしも意識して真似をしてみたいと思います。
このところ、感情に振り回されて行動することが本当に減ってきました。
ある友人には、自分のことなのに、他人事のように話すね、と言われました。
感情は流れていくもので、まして自分でも自分のものでもありません。
その学びがしっかり体感として身についている実感があることを、
とても嬉しく思います。
Preparation: Going to Osmena Peak セブで山登り Peak Osumena 準備編 フィリピンとの文化の違いにハラハラ。。。
One of my friends Ann invited me to mountain climbing last Tuesday.
Actually we were supposed to climb another mountain two weeks ago, however we gave up right before we figured out that it would not be as easy as we expected. We ended up chatting at home. It made me feel like I really wanted to accomplish our plan this time.
Unfortunately, the information from Ann was very limited and she did not reply enough since she was busy with her work. I worked hard to get information. However,I realized that me trying to get information turned out to be a waste of my energy and time. That was just because of cultural differences and I didn’t know at that time.
Our target is Osmena Peak, which is approximately 1,000 meters above sea level making it the highest peak in Cebu Island.
This is an image of sunrise there from google.
To reach the entrance of the trekking course, we need to take a bus from South bus terminal for 2.5 to 3 hours, and then motorcycle taxi (habal-habal) for 20 minutes.
Her last message in the morning confused me a lot. It was that she would take the bus leaving 11p.m. from Cebu South Bus terminal. She also said that she still didn’t find the place to stay before the climbing and there is no bus going to the place in the early morning.
Surprisingly, it is rare for the locals to go there even though it is a famous tourist spot and kids can also climb it due to its easy level. Therefore I tried to get information from my international friends group. Besides that, I googled and called the bus terminal or the bus company to make sure of the time schedule but nobody picked up the phone/answered my calls. Ann texted me only that I got a snack. That was funny to me because snack is not so important in general.
Right after, I felt tired and decided to let it go, a reliable and international friend of mine messaged me that there is no reliable information on the net therefore we just need to do it. I got the point finally.
I bought a big backpack. As a matter of fact, I like mountains but the last time I climbed a mountain was when I was an elementary student. It took time to make a decision to buy a big backpack because I am just 155 cm in height.
The funny thing is the staff there. He didn’t get why I chose charcoal gray. He believed that it is a color for men. In addition he said, baby blue is for women, black is for men and suggest me to share it with my partner till the end. ( I am single though. hehe )
Surprisingly, some local are very conservative.
Soon after, I realized that I needed a big backpack. That is because, she texted me to bring my bikini and changing clothes and with my food as a vegetarian, and then my big backpack became full.
A few hours later, I started to see the outline of our plan. That is that another friend of hers is joining from the other island. They wanted to meet up at the bus stop earlier near the entrance of the mountain in order not to let her friend wait there alone. I decided to take the bus alone later to join them.
I really wanted to know that beforehand, but it is just a difference of culture….
友人に山登りに誘われたのは、先週火曜日。
実は、２週間前に別の山に行く予定だったのですが、
当日になって思ったより大変な山登りだと分かって
結局我が家でおしゃべりして終わってしまい、
今回こそはきっと決行させたいと
気合いが入りまくっていました。笑
ところが彼女から届く連絡や情報は限定的で、
質問をしても返信がなく、
仕事などで忙しいのだろうと思い、
一生懸命情報収集をしました。
これが後になって無駄だったとわかり、
フィリピンとの文化の違いをまた学ぶことになるのですが。。。
目指すは Peak Osumena ！！
セブ島で一番高い山です。
こちらは日の出の様子。
グーグルで見つけた参考写真。
セブの South Bus Terminal から２.５〜３時間ほどバスに乗り、
それからバイクタクシーで20分ほどで登山口に向かい、
登山します。
前日の朝、友人からのメッセージは、
前日の23時のバスに乗るけれど、
現地に着いてから登山開始するまでどこで過ごそうか
まだ決まっていないとのこと。
早朝のバスがあるはずだよ、と返信したものの。
ない！と彼女の返信。
実は、意外とローカルの人は行ったことがないので、
インターナショナルなグループで情報収集。
さらに正確なバスの時間を知りたくて、
ググったものの、情報が古かったり、
バス停やバス会社に電話をかけまくるものの、
出てもらえなくて、
仕事中の友人からは連絡もなく、
（おやつは買ったと連絡があったのみ。笑）
疲れてしまって、もう行けなくてもいいやと思ったところで、
（特に英語でのグーグルは疲れます。）
結局フィリピンではネットや電話で事前情報は得られない。
決行するしかない。
30分ごとにバスがあるから大丈夫よ！
とアドバイスもらって、バックパックを買いに行きました。
実は、山は好きだけれど、最後に登ったのは、
小学校の遠足でした。
身長155センチのわたしにとって、
大きいバックパックはバランスが悪いのではと
かなり躊躇した後、ようやく購入しました。
面白かったのは店員さん。
黒は男性の色で、ネイビーは女性の色。
わたしはチャコールグレーを選んだのですが、
理解できないようで、
最後までダンナさんとシェアしてね、
と言っていました。
フィリピンて意外と保守的なところがあるんですよね。
ベジタリアンなので、外食ができないことを想定し、
バナナを５本とアーモンドとヘルシーなチップスを購入。
ビーチに行くかもしれないからと連絡があり、
ビキニとタオルを詰めて、
大きなバックパックでないと無理だったとその後すぐに
悟ることになります。
その後、彼女からメッセージがあり、
隣の島からバスで来る友達と登山口近くのバス停で合流するから、
待たせたくないから、彼女は11時のバスに乗る。
わたしは１時のバスに乗って、
バスを降りたところのセブンイレブンで待ち合わせようとのこと。
ようやく概要が見えてくるのです。
最初からそう言ってくれたら、
数時間の労力が省けたはずなのに、
と思わず思ってしまいました。
Changing The Policy about This Blog and My Current Life
I strongly wanted to stick to posting in English and Japanese in this blog and I had been trying. However, I thought to myself that it takes more energy and time than I currently have. Finally, I decided to write only in English sometimes. Please allow me to do so.
One of the reasons is, I would like to post more frequently and easily. In addition, I simply enjoy my current life very much, since I had been in the hotel more than four months. Just staying at home, cooking, doing the laundry ( actually I mainly do hand washing), cleaning my room, and so on makes me so calm.
I also go to the Yoga studio everyday. It is wonderful but it consumes too much energy for me because I haven’t been acustomed to exercising after moving to Cebu. Even though I did yoga every morning at my hotel room, there was no challenge nor body improvement at all.
As you know, I am the person who loves traveling very much. Even with my two girls, I had traveled around the world as much as possible. But now, has my desire decreased because I am very satisfied with my current life? Of course yes! But I need something more than that!
As a matter of fact, there was an exact reason for me to love staying here.
Please look at this map.
There is an orange line on Cebu. It says as follows.
More beneficial on the western side of the line.
Even when you are not ready to retire, this placement guarantees the best conditions for a relaxed and gentle rest from your hectic working life. You are happy to be by yourself, are content to be at home, and there is not the least desire for power, recognition or ambitious striving.
You can focus entirely on yourself, by recalling your childhood, and you may even seek renewed contact with your family. Here, men could become fathers, or, at least, consider starting a family. These images are sustained by a desire for emotional security, and give a clearer understanding of who you are.
Images of the past keep coming back and can be analyzed. Such places lend themselves to the preparation of new tasks, as well as to exploring the depths of your psyche. These energies can be usefully channelled via contemplation, meditation, and other therapeutic means.
The worldly aspect of this line promotes the buying and selling of real estate. Work on the actual construction of houses goes well.
That really makes sense, doesn’t it?
You also can check yours with this website: https://www.astro.com/cgi/scus.cgi
Peaceful Beautiful Life 