Coaching Session – Just Relax and Have a Peaceful Time with My Soul Sister | May 16, 2026

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Thanks to my coach, I confirmed that I still have not completely forgiven my mother yet.

Furthermore, I felt relieved to realize that I do not need to work hard to forgive her, as I used to think. I simply need to heal myself by doing what my heart and body truly want. When I am filled with enough love, forgiveness will come naturally. Basically, my mother has always done her best for me. Even now, she is still trying to be a good mother to me. How wonderful she is.

By the way, in yoga philosophy, the ego is defined as the belief that we are separate or disconnected from others. It refers to treating others in ways we would not want to be treated ourselves—such as pushing others aside to satisfy our own desires. Understanding this made me realize that I do not need to worry so much about whether my desires come from ego or not.

After that, I visited my soul sister’s home. We meditated together and had a lovely chat. It was such a beautiful day, thanks to my coach and my soul sister.

Coaching Session – A Goal for May | May 2, 2026

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What I learned and realized in today’s session is as follows:

  • I should be more proud of myself for raising my first daughter, who truly loves her life.

  • There is always both positive and negative information about everything.
I have the ability to choose, so I don’t need to worry too much about negative information.

  • To improve my English, I should talk with native speakers.
Dating apps can be a good tool.

After that, I met an American man and we had dinner together.
He is nice and kind, but honestly, I couldn’t feel completely comfortable with his current unemployment situation.
He wants to live here and is trying, but it seems difficult.
I felt uncomfortable when he paid for my dinner.
I’m aware that this may be connected to something within me, such as a fear of losing my job.
Anyway, I couldn’t fully enjoy myself with him.

By the way, I chose “active appreciation” as my goal for May.
One of Brené Brown’s books inspired me to do so.
I will set aside time for appreciation every day.

Coaching Session – Enjoy with Ease | April 25, 2026

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This time, I decided to enjoy everything with ease, especially dating for now. My coach also suggested that I open my profile to everyone on the app and select “marriage” and “life partner” as what I am looking for.

She also introduced some Buddhist concepts that help clarify what not to get attached to:

離欲 (riyoku): Literally “freedom from desire,” similar to the concept of vairāgya. It refers to letting go of craving or greed.

無執着 (mushūjaku): Non-attachment; not clinging to things or emotional attachments.

出離 (shutsuri): Renunciation; stepping away from suffering and worldly attachments in pursuit of awakening.

捨 (sha): One of the Four Immeasurables, meaning equanimity—letting go of attachment and aversion, and maintaining a balanced mind.

To me, these feel very close to the idea of satori. Anyway, I will try using the dating app again and see how it goes.

A Magical Trip to Koya-san

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I visited Koya-san with my soul sister last weekend. We enjoyed perfect cherry blossoms, beautiful weather, fascinating history, meaningful connections with others, meditation, a temple stay, and so much more.

What I loved most was how well our flexibility and spontaneity matched each other. I felt completely comfortable being myself with her, which is something we have naturally learned since we met.

We experienced many small moments of luck—like finding available seats almost everywhere we went, and receiving a three-leaf pine needle from a kind woman. It came from a legendary pine tree and is known as a lucky charm.

This trip was actually planned by chance. While I was with her, a friend shared his experience in Koya-san with me at just the right time, and we decided to follow it immediately.

By the way, my friend had spent a few weeks on the Shikoku Pilgrimage a few years ago. Until the first day of this trip, she didn’t realize that Koya-san is the starting and ending point of the pilgrimage. Surprisingly, she had brought her white pilgrimage robe and stole, simply following her intuition.

During this trip, I had many opportunities to pray. Each time, I expressed deep gratitude from my heart—for being guided there, for being with my best friend, for the health of my family and friends, and eventually for everything I have and everyone I have met.

I will probably go on another trip with her.

Coaching Session | April 11, 2026

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What I learned and realized in today’s session is as follows:

  • I do not need to add more knowledge. For now, I already know enough.
  • I should always be my own home, even after I find a partner or a community I really like.
  • Finding true beauty within myself may be one of the goals of my current life.
  • I do not need to push myself. There is no need for 努力 doryoku (effortful striving) in my life.
  • Judging myself means judging others as well. This will naturally dissolve when I am healed and centered enough.

Harsh Facts about Dating Apps

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A YouTuber pointed out some sad facts about dating apps. For example, swiping through lots of profiles can make your brain tired, and that can make it harder to make decisions.

Unnecessary rejection, slow responses, or suddenly not getting replies can lower your self-confidence little by little. Also, you might develop the false belief that you will meet a more suitable man later on the app. Because of the high-spec men on apps, you may also find it harder to feel attracted to men you meet in real life.

I didn’t know that there was research supporting these ideas, but I had already noticed all of them through my own experience, so they felt very convincing to me. Anyway, once I start using it again, I probably won’t be able to stop easily. There are still about one month until I can restart the dating app I like.At the same time, I still want to believe that I can use it wisely by limiting how much I use it. Anyway, one month is long enough for me to experience enough inner change and awareness to make this decision. I’m looking forward to it.

Coaching Session-Wrong Beliefs | April 4, 2026

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My coach pointed out some wrong beliefs. 

I don’t need to feel guilty about resting. 

  • I should imagine myself living alone. I would like to have a small house, a small car, and a dog. I should be happy and feel safe in any situation.Whether I have a partner or not doesn’t matter, because that belief is not true.
  • If you find your calling, that’s wonderful. If not, that’s fine too. After all, a calling is something you happen to encounter by chance on your life journey.
  • I should travel to Spain. I am being guided.

Some of my wrong beliefs, including the idea that single women cannot be happy, may be deeply rooted because I inherited them from my mother. In that sense, they are not really mine. Keeping some distance from her may help me overwrite those beliefs. I have almost decided not to visit her tomorrow.

Healing on a Deeper Level | March 19, 2026

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Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night. I remembered two things I had experienced during my daughter’s graduation.

One was the difference between my ex-husband’s perspective and mine. He is very positive and does not try to control my daughters, but I responded to him in a negative way. I couldn’t see that at the time. My ex-husband has been deeply loved by his parents, unlike me. I know my parents didn’t do anything wrong, but now I have almost decided to cancel my hometown visit scheduled for tomorrow. I don’t think I can be kind right now.

The other thing was my daughter’s cold attitude toward me, which I could even call rude. I feel that she has anger, and I hope it is not really about me, but it seemed to come out toward me. I may have triggered it, though. It is also sad that I can’t express my emotions to her. Anyway, I will decide later whether to attend her entrance ceremony. I want to protect myself.

This morning, none of the affirmations I learned yesterday felt right. Instead, I did Ho’oponopono and cried a lot. Clearly, I need more and more love for myself.

Coaching Session-My Second Daighter’s Grauduation | March 18, 2026

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What I learned today is as follows:

– Morning affirmations should feel natural, acceptable, and make me feel safe and good. I will try: “I am okay just the way I am” (私はこのままで大丈夫。), “I am worthy” (私には価値がある。), and “I am loved” (私は愛されている。), and then feel myself and my emotions after each affirmation.

– Wanting to control someone or something is a sign that I lack love for myself.

– I can create my world through what I believe, such as “The older I get, the more attractive I become.”


– I can let go of the mindsets that make me suffer. I am precious, so I can do whatever I like. Being myself, including being vulnerable, contributes to the harmony of the world. I can welcome my imperfections.

Today’s session was full of love, as always. How lucky I am to have such a beautiful coach.

Thanks to her, I had some good communication with my ex-husband. My second daughter messaged me to thank me for the gift and letter I gave her. She is happy and loves her father. I realized that I was simply comparing myself to my ex-husband, and that was what made me sad. It was a very simple ego reaction.