Thanks to this video, I finally have an understanding of the mechanism of realization, which cleared up some ambiguities in me.
このビデオのおかげで、ずっと分からないでいた現実化の仕組みが理解できた。
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Dr. Joe Dispenza ジョー・ディスペンザ博士
In February 2025, I began an intensive effort to evolve my inner life.
Several improvements were identified. For example, meditating three times a day became my new habit and my SMS time was dramatically reduced. Awareness of my emotions and my breathing was also improved. The anxiety and loneliness within me became much quieter.
All this is due to the knowledge of Dr. Joe Dispenza. The daily input of his information motivates me to continue my journey.
2025年2月、私は自分の内面を成長させるための集中的な取り組みを始めた。
いくつかの改善があった。例えば、1日3回の瞑想が新たな習慣となり、SMSに費やす時間が劇的に減った。自分の感情や呼吸に対する気づきも強化された。私の中にある不安や孤独も、ずっと静かになった。
これらはすべて、ジョー・ディスペンザ博士の知識のおかげだ。彼の情報を毎日インプットすることが、私の新たな挑戦を日々続けるモチベーションになっている。
Living in Tokyo
Moving from one place to another can be time consuming and a little hassle especially during the pandemic. In this span of time, I had no choice but to do so and decided to move back to Tokyo last September to avoid vaccinations and as you may have known, the mandatory PCR test is required frequently in Vietnam. To be honest, it took me about two weeks to complete this move after deciding to leave. I was scared to death about the case that the border would/might be closed for unvaccinated people or there would/might be another duty for the PCR test. In Vietnam, I had to have it regularly, even though I was not able to go out.
I finally made it to Tokyo!
To start with, I settled down in a tiny apartment after a few months of staying in a monthly apartment, got a full-time job offer starting next month, and also gained access to meet my daughters regularly. I was on top of the world with my life’s choices!
During that time, I had to make many choices such as the date of a flight, the location to live, a job to apply for and take, and materials for my new life. Finding an apartment was extremely difficult, as I did not have any idea where my new office was! However, I did it by connecting small clues that came to me unexpectedly. Well, that is what I like the most about life! You have to strike while the iron is hot!
My way to deal with my loneliness under lockdown
My work from home started about three weeks ago. I have not been to the city for about three months. I also figured out almost nothing in common with one of my good friends, to whom we talk every day.
And then, I came back to English learning; that is my pattern to overcome this loneliness. As motivation is not appropriate, the result should be the same.
This time I found a way, which is writing emails or messages to my friends. They understand my situation and know that one-way writing is okay to me. I have too much time, while many friends are busy with their family.
It seems like I have time for a while and hoping to restart this blog more often and more casually. I started it when I was in such an intensive English academy by having classes with a blogger teacher. I just restarted to contact her a few days ago. People tend to make a story to find a reason to motivate, don’t they? It can narrow the view, but it works sometimes, I believe. I took the sign this time.
Honestly, there is also a hidden purpose in this blog, which is to find lovely friends. I have sometimes experienced that this blog helps me have a deep connection quickly, and now, I would love to visit them after lockdown.
Acceptance
My friend pointed out that my last post was spooky, deja vu, etc. It is right. Now I know my ego wrote it.
Why did it happen? There is a blockage to connect to who I am, which is a complaint about my work condition. In reality, many things have good things and bad things. I need to surrender. Plus, it will not last forever.
How can I accept it? All I need to do is see whatever comes to me throughout the day and then review the day and my reactions.
Understanding with Presence
Seven months have passed since I started to work. My experiences and knowledge have begun to link each other such as synapses in the brain. The perception and comprehension of the life lessons I have heard frequently have been growing deeper and deeper, especially ‘Understanding with presence.’
Thanks to my bosses, co-workers, and work situations, I practice it every day, such as the imagination of other colleague’s positions and standings. There is nothing to blame others in this world. If something is happening, I want to blame, simply because of a lack of understanding or presence. ‘Understanding with presence’ is perfect totally.
It is not great at all at work, but I am achieving a lot from my mistakes. As an example, my deep thinking tendency sometimes brings a stupid result. Only reviewing three times with presence prevents such things, I realized. Moreover, it commenced being a new habit.
My body condition also affects my work’s productivity and quality, such as sleeplessness and hormone changes. Dr. Jonh Gray says that current work conditions are not for women, like pressure, deadlines, etc. Admitting what I am not okay with and adjusting the actions has reduced my stress. I can assure I have become more kind to myself.
Dancing and networking I used to prefer have gone without extra energy. Instead, I relish my time, learning something new, even on weekends. My relationships have shifted, as well. It seems like I became able to attract what I need more powerfully and precisely.
I have an excellent friend who is eighty years old with lots of passion and confident vibrations. Of course, he looks amazingly young. I was surprised to notice that I still have about forty years to reach his age.
Sometimes, I feel I should work and study more to have more freedom sooner. However, I know I can invest energy only one thing. I should focus on my work with stillness for a while. The great thing is changes often come earlier than I expect.
Emotion Is Your Choice
First off, I began to work as an accountant this March. Actually, working for a company is almost a new experience to me. As you may know, I used to be a kind of homemaker for more than 14 years. Plus, the company I am currently in has a unique culture of Vietnam combined with a satisfactory, old Japanese company. It brings me lots of challenges and life lessons. Thus, I needed my time to be charged. However, finally a passion to write has come to me. This time I would like to share an unforgettable experience with you, that happened 2 weeks ago.
I was in the office and suddenly I started to feel isolation. The coworkers were enjoying talking about something in Vietnamese and I didn’t understand their topic at all. That is quite usual, but at that time, I gathered negative information subconsciously about my work, and I went deeper and finally tears appeared. Even after I went back home, I was not able to stop.
Right after I started chatting with my happiest lady friend in Ho Chi Minh City, I realized the fact that I chose this sadness. Immediately my sadness disappeared. It was a very intense experience. I also found out I can control other emotions with awareness, such as anger, fear, etc. I felt like I had obtained such a powerful tool to create my day without unhelpful feelings. I don’t need to suffer from thoughts that don’t serve me anymore.
Just now, there is a strange sensation within me, like I was in the story I created. Definitely, I took that experience too personally at that time. I have read about it many times in the past, but I did not understand exactly. But yes, now I am feeling that.
Going back, only experiences with fine awareness are what I need for now. Working, learning, walking in the park, and so on, everything is a beautiful experience. I appreciate each day, and I can tell that I live every day more intentionally. How lovely my life in Ho Chi Minh City is….
These are taken in a mangrove jungle near Ho Chi Minh City….
How Can I Distinguish between Overthinking and Intuition? My Answer Is: Take Your Time.
My Chinese zodiac is snake. My horoscope sign is Scorpio.
By Suzanne White “The New Astrology Pocket Guide”
I am very intuitive and sometimes overthink. I have been having a hard time how to tell apart instinct from just overthinking.
Basically, I would like to follow my intuition.
People tend to have negative ideas when thinking too much, but I used to pick up the positive ones. However, my guts can sometimes give me negative answers.
On the other hand, it is also beneficial to choose the one I can control more in order to avoid stress.
My mentor always teaches me to decide after taking a deep breathe and slight meditation. Luckily, I found a more simple way for it. That is, just take your time.
It is also a good idea to ask advise from your friends. If they are good listeners, you will find your answer naturally. That’s why especialluy we women need friends.
In the past, I hadn’t consulted my friends since I believed that I know my answers were within me. Now that I have some friends to ask a piece of help easily, depending on the issues. At the same time, more friends ask me help as well. That is an interesting thing.
One of my ex-boyfriends used to say “Let me think”. I remember that his mind was very quiet then. I would like to follow it with intent.
These days, I have more control of my emotion. A friend of mine pointed out: when I was talking about myself, it seems like I was talking about others but not myself.
Emotion is just flowing naturally, and it’s not even me or mine.
As I have written in my past blogs, the more concentrated decisions I have, the better reality will come to me.
I am happy that I realized that my understanding on how to make a choice intentionally is getting deeper and I started to master it.
At a favorite restaurant in Manila Airport Terminal 3. Finally, this terminal changed into a comfortable place since last year. It has lots of sweet memories with my two daughters.
わたしはさそり座の巳年。
ものすごく直感が鋭いです。
同時に、深く考えすぎてしまうことがあります。
何か決断をしないといけない時、
直感なのか、考えすぎなのか、
どう区別したら良いのかわからないでいました。
直感に従って行動したいのです。
考えすぎはネガティブな結論になりがちなので、
あえてポジティブな答えを選んでいたときもありましたが、
それでも直感もネガティブな結論を出すこともあります。
また、自分でよりコントロールできる方を選ぶというのも、
ストレスを抱えない意味で大切です。
何か決断をしないといけない時に、
深呼吸をして、軽く瞑想をして自問するようにしていたのですが、
友達から、もっとシンプルな方法を教えてもらいました。
単純に答えを出すまでもっと時間をかけることです。
友達に相談しているうちに時間はすぎます。
そのうちにはっきり答えが見えてきます。
だから、特に女性には相談相手が必要なんですね。
答えは全部自分が知っている、と考えるようになってから、
あえて誰にも相談しない時期もありましたが、
今は、何人も相談相手がいて、タイミングや内容により
ベストな人に気軽に相談に乗ってもらっています。
不思議なもので、わたしに相談をしてくれる人も増えました。
かつて、「考えさせて。」（Let me think.）が口癖の人と
お付き合いをしていたことがあります。
その時、確かに彼のマインドはとても鎮まっていました。
わたしも意識して真似をしてみたいと思います。
このところ、感情に振り回されて行動することが本当に減ってきました。
ある友人には、自分のことなのに、他人事のように話すね、と言われました。
感情は流れていくもので、まして自分でも自分のものでもありません。
その学びがしっかり体感として身についている実感があることを、
とても嬉しく思います。
Accepting Changes in Relationships
I am sure many Japanese living in the Philippines have experiences of being asked for money by local friends. I usually don’t lend money.
( I gave some money to a friend who was hospitalized. )
I believe that lending money is not beneficial.
Facing a financial problem is a chance to develop. People may think seriously how to spend money properly, or may start saving money regularly.
If they get money effortlessly, they might repeat the same mistakes.
Actually, one of my friends I love asked me money but I refused.Our friendship may break up, but it is no problem even though it is very sad.
In my opinion, only beneficial things are happening to us.
Something new is always coming to an empty space.
By the way, I am trying to accept any changes, including intimate relationships, since everything is changing anyway.
If I have a life partner and then he wants to leave me, I would want to say thank you and good bye with a smile. That is the level I am targeting.
In fact, I don’t expect ahead seriously because it is in the future and I am the type of person who will not spend energy to think about it so much.
The sunrise from the hotel near the mountains of Cebu.
フィリピンにお住まいの日本人なら経験することだと思うのですが、
ローカルの友達からお金を貸してと言われることがあります。
わたしは貸しません。
（病気になった友人にお金をあげたことはありますが。）
本当に彼らのためにならないと思うのです。
お金のピンチはお金の学習のチャンスです。
お金の使い方を見直すチャンスであり、
貯金が必要だと身に染みて、
具体的に毎月いくら貯金しようと行動を始めるかもしれません。
それを貸してしまったら、
またお金が足りなくなったら、誰かから借りるでおしまいです。
実は、大好きだった友達からお金を貸してと頼まれ、断りました。
友情が壊れてしまうなら、それでいいと思っています。
すべて最善なことしか起こっていません。
そして、必ずできたスペースに新しいものが入ってきます。
そんな風に、人間関係の変化を受け入れていっています。
すべてのもの、人が変化しています。
もしわたしにパートナーができ、その後彼が別れたいと言ったら、
笑顔でありがとう、さようなら、と言いたいと思っています。
それがわたしの目指すレベルです。
未来のことだから、真剣に考えていないけれど。笑
お気に入りのセブの山の近くのホテルの日の出。
Peaceful Beautiful Life 