Time flies. Since my last post, many things have happened in my life.
Just last week, I came across and re-read a book by Hohoko Asami, who happened to be the author of “The Law of Attraction” over 20 years ago. It was quite surprising that I read it about 20 years ago for the first time! I thought I understood it, but I was not ready at all. Through ages and experience, I can understand her arguments. It is the same as any other spiritual teaching. What’s more, I have upgraded myself.
I have some experiences which were more wonderful than I could have hoped for. There were no expectations, no negative feelings of ego or attachment. As a result, I was able to create a better reality.
One of my mentors says that the highest frequency is “neutrality”. Now I fully understand. So, how do I get it? There seem to be many ways. I will write about them a little later.
I had worked for three companies after I came back to Tokyo last September. The first one was what I liked, but the salary was not able to cover all my expenses. Others were black, so to speak, such as no over-work payment, power-harassment, and the like.
I was also not that happy with the relationship with my daughters. I was kind of at the bottom at that time. Luckily, my friend gave a counseling session that cleared up the root causes I had made and advised me to go on a good direction trip with some dates I should leave, the direction I should travel, and what to do there. That enlightened me and uplifted my spirit and realized I should do it more often when needed and when it’s possible.
I felt like my energy was too low to book a hotel, but I made it somehow. Right before the trip, I emailed my resume to some HR agents my friend introduced. I was on top of the world when one agent worked quickly and efficiently and I got a job offer only four days after I sent my CV. I also knew what I needed at work, so it didn’t take time for me to decide. I grabbed the opportunity as I believe the saying, “strike while the iron is hot!”
Working for a non-Japanese company is my first experience ever. My standard is high since the first company I worked for has an advanced working culture and most people work well and happily except for a long working-time. It seems like they have improved it now though. Even so, I can tell that my current work is the best. I have so much freedom regarding working time and place. My boss speaks in good Japanese, which saves my energy when I am slammed, also helps my work to proceed, and cares for me. In addition, I truly appreciate his trust in me.
I’ve come to realize that the benefit of a good direction trip should last for 60 years. In my friend’s experience, it should be more than two nights. What’s more, the effect goes for people around you. This time, my friend got a promotion. My relationship with my daughters have developed a lot and we have a harmonious relationship. I believe that a good direction trip is the most worth investing in.
Moving from one place to another can be time consuming and a little hassle especially during the pandemic. In this span of time, I had no choice but to do so and decided to move back to Tokyo last September to avoid vaccinations and as you may have known, the mandatory PCR test is required frequently in Vietnam. To be honest, it took me about two weeks to complete this move after deciding to leave. I was scared to death about the case that the border would/might be closed for unvaccinated people or there would/might be another duty for the PCR test. In Vietnam, I had to have it regularly, even though I was not able to go out.
I finally made it to Tokyo!
To start with, I settled down in a tiny apartment after a few months of staying in a monthly apartment, got a full-time job offer starting next month, and also gained access to meet my daughters regularly. I was on top of the world with my life’s choices!
During that time, I had to make many choices such as the date of a flight, the location to live, a job to apply for and take, and materials for my new life. Finding an apartment was extremely difficult, as I did not have any idea where my new office was! However, I did it by connecting small clues that came to me unexpectedly. Well, that is what I like the most about life! You have to strike while the iron is hot!
My work from home started about three weeks ago. I have not been to the city for about three months. I also figured out almost nothing in common with one of my good friends, to whom we talk every day. And then, I came back to English learning; that is my pattern to overcome this loneliness. As motivation is not appropriate, the result should be the same.
This time I found a way, which is writing emails or messages to my friends. They understand my situation and know that one-way writing is okay to me. I have too much time, while many friends are busy with their family.
It seems like I have time for a while and hoping to restart this blog more often and more casually. I started it when I was in such an intensive English academy by having classes with a blogger teacher. I just restarted to contact her a few days ago. People tend to make a story to find a reason to motivate, don’t they? It can narrow the view, but it works sometimes, I believe. I took the sign this time.
Honestly, there is also a hidden purpose in this blog, which is to find lovely friends. I have sometimes experienced that this blog helps me have a deep connection quickly, and now, I would love to visit them after lockdown.
My friend pointed out that my last post was spooky, deja vu, etc. It is right. Now I know my ego wrote it.
Why did it happen? There is a blockage to connect to who I am, which is a complaint about my work condition. In reality, many things have good things and bad things. I need to surrender. Plus, it will not last forever.
How can I accept it? All I need to do is see whatever comes to me throughout the day and then review the day and my reactions.
My new life started last month with my latest work and new apartment far from Ho Chi Minh City. Plus, my new relationships made me cry a lot. One of my best friends left Vietnam. I began to feel distant from some friends mentally. Even I go to the center of HCMC at least once a week.
I want to write down some words that lift me, and some are from my friends or books.
“Single is normal.” I had loved a guy who left. And then, the vast space appeared. Female expats are struggling a lot to find a partner here. Now I do not live in the city. There is almost no hope. But why I feel wrong with being single. Single is not that bad.
“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.” This message takes away all resistance. That is so powerful.
“Outside is the reflection of inside.” Some unnecessary subconscious programs have become more precise these seven months—this time, I want to throw them away. I know they come to me because I can overcome.
My life has lots of changes: places to live, work, and relationships. I am not sure where I am going. Covid-19 gave me another significant impact after the Fukushima catastrophe.
I think it is time for me to be more intentional about figuring out what I truly want and knowing who I am in the process.
Seven months have passed since I started to work. My experiences and knowledge have begun to link each other such as synapses in the brain. The perception and comprehension of the life lessons I have heard frequently have been growing deeper and deeper, especially ‘Understanding with presence.’
Thanks to my bosses, co-workers, and work situations, I practice it every day, such as the imagination of other colleague’s positions and standings. There is nothing to blame others in this world. If something is happening, I want to blame, simply because of a lack of understanding or presence. ‘Understanding with presence’ is perfect totally.
It is not great at all at work, but I am achieving a lot from my mistakes. As an example, my deep thinking tendency sometimes brings a stupid result. Only reviewing three times with presence prevents such things, I realized. Moreover, it commenced being a new habit.
My body condition also affects my work’s productivity and quality, such as sleeplessness and hormone changes. Dr. Jonh Gray says that current work conditions are not for women, like pressure, deadlines, etc. Admitting what I am not okay with and adjusting the actions has reduced my stress. I can assure I have become more kind to myself.
Dancing and networking I used to prefer have gone without extra energy. Instead, I relish my time, learning something new, even on weekends. My relationships have shifted, as well. It seems like I became able to attract what I need more powerfully and precisely.
I have an excellent friend who is eighty years old with lots of passion and confident vibrations. Of course, he looks amazingly young. I was surprised to notice that I still have about forty years to reach his age.
Sometimes, I feel I should work and study more to have more freedom sooner. However, I know I can invest energy only one thing. I should focus on my work with stillness for a while. The great thing is changes often come earlier than I expect.
First off, I began to work as an accountant this March. Actually, working for a company is almost a new experience to me. As you may know, I used to be a kind of homemaker for more than 14 years. Plus, the company I am currently in has a unique culture of Vietnam combined with a satisfactory, old Japanese company. It brings me lots of challenges and life lessons. Thus, I needed my time to be charged. However, finally a passion to write has come to me. This time I would like to share an unforgettable experience with you, that happened 2 weeks ago.
I was in the office and suddenly I started to feel isolation. The coworkers were enjoying talking about something in Vietnamese and I didn’t understand their topic at all. That is quite usual, but at that time, I gathered negative information subconsciously about my work, and I went deeper and finally tears appeared. Even after I went back home, I was not able to stop.
Right after I started chatting with my happiest lady friend in Ho Chi Minh City, I realized the fact that I chose this sadness. Immediately my sadness disappeared. It was a very intense experience. I also found out I can control other emotions with awareness, such as anger, fear, etc. I felt like I had obtained such a powerful tool to create my day without unhelpful feelings. I don’t need to suffer from thoughts that don’t serve me anymore.
Just now, there is a strange sensation within me, like I was in the story I created. Definitely, I took that experience too personally at that time. I have read about it many times in the past, but I did not understand exactly. But yes, now I am feeling that.
Going back, only experiences with fine awareness are what I need for now. Working, learning, walking in the park, and so on, everything is a beautiful experience. I appreciate each day, and I can tell that I live every day more intentionally. How lovely my life in Ho Chi Minh City is….
These are taken in a mangrove jungle near Ho Chi Minh City….
I have been staying in Saigon since the middle of November. Actually, I came here by chance. I didn’t intend to stay long at all. It was only supposed to be a 5-day trip. However, I decided to live here due to the following reasons.
・Amazing food.
Vegetarian friendly, reasonable, healthy and tasty. I believe we are made of what we eat. People can be truly nice, only when they are healthy.
・No visa problem
It’s very easy to stay here. It requires to leave Vietnam every 3 months. Plus, many attractive countries are very accessible and flight tickets are reasonable. I got a 3-month multiple visa when arrived at the airport. The total cost is just 75USD and I can leave and enter freely.
・Intense passion on having new chapter of my life
I have been in the Philippines for 6 years on and off. I have many beautiful friends and I feel it is my second home. However, I know deep inside, I have a strong desire to have new life experiences.
・Possibility to gain energetic body
It seems like my deep muscle is very tense. It really makes me get tired easily. Maybe because I used to have wrong posture for decades and work as a system engineer, I often worked until midnight. Fortunately, I found the best therapist in my life here in Saigon.
I am going back to Cebu on Dec. 12th. and coming back on Dec. 25th.
I have to make my room in Cebu empty. I have nice stuff from Japan or abroad. I also bought lots of emergency food, water and stuff. The fear often comes to me, if I can really make it for only about 10 days. It happens every day.
Being a real minimalist by removing attachments to my stuff. That is the biggest challenge this time.
I strongly believe that moving to a new place is the most beneficial way in order to appreciate your life. Meeting new people and experiencing other culture widen your value and view in life. These can get you out of your comfort zone easily. Your life is to experience. The obstacles of it are your subconscious and less confidence within you. That’s very true.
Life is amazingly beautiful. I came here just to meet a guy who had a business trip here. We liked each other but our value is totally different and decided to keep our friendship. I can’t thank him enough.
Peaceful Beautiful Life 